there's so much to write down during this period that i'm gone from blogging.
its my passion to write and think through things which many would find that i'm being too philosophical, too emotional at times, think too much etc.
haha.. watever.
i'm just happy being myself. =D

i'm relishing myself from blogging.
to my dear readers who always checking back to see if there is any new posts.
haha, sorry.
its my honour to have friends like u all! =)

i will be taking my blogs down soon and making it private.
if there is ANY materials u find it meaningful..
go ahead and save it somewhere. =D

from,
King With Love.

That is why it is so important to let certain things go. 
To release them. To cut loose. 
People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. 
Don't expect to get anything back, don't expect recognition for your efforts, don't expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. 
Complete the circle. Not our of pride, inability, or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. 
Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. 
Stop being who you were and become who you are.
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"I've only just realized it, remembering now how the look in her eyes changed. I'd always absorbed her life and her energy, and that made me feel happy and confident, able to move forward. She, on the other hand, had looked at me and felt ugly, diminished, because as the years passed, my career -- had relegated our relationship to second place.
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The Zahir

maybe thats why. 
i thought it was not my fault.
it's mine.
maybe its ours.







e-flaming is too childish.
maybe i'm just over-sensitive. 

for the BB CARES, my company organized a rockwall climbing session for the 4PM children.


the children attending the basics lesson conducted by the BB boys.

rockwall competition.

the tougher rockwall.

nice rockwall hor?

looking back at the community service i've done. i wondered if the lesson behind it is to let us know that we are more fortunate so that we could better learnt to appreciate our lives.

or was it for something more?

so we could inspire them to become who they can be.
at the same time, aspire us to be great.

we can also learn 1 thing from children, to be happy for no reason.

i have been blogging about stuff that are close to my heart..
i called it the 'true' series. i foresee that there will not be much 'true' entries in the near future.

after done with my true feelings, i looked back and thought that i could have done a better write-up. but i decided to leave it that way.

true thought for the moment, not thoughts.

*updated for mistakes*

Story of Tin K & Dream
*This is a work of pure fiction*

Part 1.
Being politely rejected by Dream for the N number of times when he asked her out. surprisingly, Tin K still came out of this unscathed. I had always marveled at how K was able to get through all this..

I was alone with K out at the balcony that night. 
He told me that he had watched this movie 'Transformer' recently. He remembered this scene which he really liked. He told me excitedly that this car/autobot called bumblebee played the song 'Oh Baby come back~!' when the female lead was leaving and on several occasion the car helped him to get the babe. There, he told me that Bumblebee had expressed the male lead feelings and how he wished he had a Bumblebee too.

I knew deep down K wished that he was the male lead.

K carried on talking about how he could relate to the movie 'Transformer'. He hinted to me that he wished to bring the girl of his Dreams to watch that movie once more because the movie spoke of things he couldn't. He got so animated talking about it that i could see some life breath into him which otherwise always is his gloomy and expressionless face.

We ended that talk late in the night. It was a hearty time with K. I wished that K could always be that happy. It's been long since i last saw him like that.

Part 2
2 weeks later..

I called K and wanted to catch up with his life. He sounded so unenthusiastic and drained. His reply consisted of 5 words at most. I too, felt drained by his negativity.
In the background, I could heard "Blind" by Lifehouse playing. Instanteously, i somehow knew why was he feeling that way.
K went on to rant about how gutless he was to ask Dream out. Inside me, I already knew why..
It was because.. he couldn’t handle the (n+1) times if he was to get rejected again.

Maybe we are buddies for life because a part of me is like him. 
Afraid and suppressed..
Anyway, K rant on and on.. what was actually 10 minutes seems like 10 hours. Einstein's theory of Relativity i thought.
I wasn't listening after 5 minutes because the stuffs repeated itself..
Just then, K snapped me right out of the daze.. He was going to tell me what really happened all this time.

*toot.. toot*  The line got cut off.
"Freak!" I said, of all time, it's now.
“Murphy's Law at work huh?”

to be continued...

I was thinking about writing some background info, somethings seem pretty hazy.

i can't hide it any longer and it has to go somewhere.
here is the place where i let it all out.
maybe this is the corner i have.
i see your kind intentions..
somewhere deep inside me still hope.
but i know unless i do something,
i will forever be looking from the sideline.
and the strange part is,
i'm contented being aloof.

its like childhood memories.
i still remember the times where i play indian house with the ppl around my neighbourhood.
forming the 'house' using 4 slippers
"INDIAN HOUSE! 123!" 
and thats how we won.
the excitement that i get from dodging all those superspeed tennis ball..
the bad part of this, it is a thing of the past.
i still see the good of it..

ahh.. wondering how mrs jacob is doing..
and all those times in sec sch..

to memories.. we'll relive.

they say i don't move on, but thats not true..
i just stay in the past longer..

1. smile
2. say 'hi'
3. strike a conversation
4. carry positive thoughts
5. use negative thoughts to motivate
6. believe
7. repeat step 1-6
8. keep step 7 in mind.

doing the stupid PQ.. got bored and surf the net.. found something interesting 



whoo, last day of school..
bye, i'm off to school now!

Recently got hyped up all about alchemy
Been chionging the anime Fullmetal Alchemist. although the anime was out in 2004.
It is about this 2 brothers Ed and Al going all out to get their body back to normal after a horrible transmutation gone wrong. The theme on redemption is very strong.. Quite a nice watch..
Especially they mentioned this almost in every episode..

The Law of Equilvalence Exchange. 
Human kind cannot gain anything unless without first giving something in return. To obtain something of equal value must be lost.

err, what can i exhange for my A grades?

The alchemist picked up a book that someone in the caravan had brought. Leafing through the pages, He found a story about Narcissus.

The alchemist knew the legend of Narcissus, a youth who knelt daily beside a lake to contemplate his beauty. He was so fasicanated by himself that, one morning, he fell into the lake and drowned. At the spot where he fell, a flower was born, which was called the narcissus.

But this was not how the author of the book ended the story.

He said that when Narcissus died, the goddesses of the forest appeared and found the lake, which had been fresh water, transformed into a lake of salty tears.

"Why do you weep?" the goddesses asked.

"I weep for Narcissus," the lake replied.

"Ah, it is no surprise that you weep for Narcissus," they said, " for though we always pursued him in the forest, you alone could contemplate his beauty close at hand."

"But... was Narcissus beautiful?" the lake asked.

"Who better than you to know that?" the goddesses said in wonder. "After all, it was by your banks that he knelt each day to contemplate himself!"

The lake was silent for some time. Finally it said:
"I weep for Narcissus, but i never noticed that Narcissus was beautiful. I weep because, each time he knelt beside my banks, I could see, in the depths of his eyes, my own beauty reflected."

"What a lovely story," the alchemist thought.
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I fell in love with this passage after i read it but i don't know the meaning behind it.
You can call that infatuation for the passage.
So, what is really the meaning behind the story?
Why did the alchemist said it was a lovely story?
Puzzled..

"If you don't make some sense out of life, life will be non sense to you."

What ultimately matters at the end is that you have to believe in youself. 
And that my dear,
it is all that it matters.

Today sucks becos of the papers, but nvm.. let me brighten my day and yours with some pretty babes.

Lets start with the caucasian babes.



Jennylee from Beauty and the Geeks
Was watching this show yesterday night and I was going ga-ga over her..
Arghh.. she is simply beautiful!!
Simply irresistable..



Jennifer Love Hewitt
Can't remember why I like her, but the fact is she is chio.


Sarah Carter. She acted in Smallville..
Man.. she is so sweet~

Asian babe.

Linda Liao. Haha, this is the only picture i managed to google.
I like her in Afterhours. Nonetheless, she is my favourite Asian babe.. 
There is still more, can't remember for the time being..

Enjoy, blog more next time =)

My favourite Superhero is none other than Superman especially when he is in his teenage years.
At that age, Clark Kent was learning to cope with big issues at hand and juggling many duties at the same time. Also, having a crush on Lana Lang who he can only protect her secretly. His family and close friends are his pillar of support. 

It always reminds me that life is not going to be a smooth sailing journey but rather filled with both rainbows and storms. They are there to teach, to guide, to shape us into becoming who we are and will be.




Tom Welling as Clark Kent in Smallville

Clark Kent never fails to teach me new things in life.
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My 2nd favourite hero is Spiderman.

Peter Parker:
Whatever life holds in store for me, I will never forget these words: 
"With great power comes great responsibility."
This is my gift, my curse. Who am I? I'm Spiderman. 

Parker just wanted to make some money out from his new powers and look.. He got Uncle Ben killed. He learnt to use his power for the good.
Parker have a crush on his neighbour, MJ, Mary Jane. He is a typical student by day and crime fighter by night.
Many a times, he is torn between living a normal life and a superhero life because a superhero life has taken its toll on him as he is not performing in school and also things are not going well between him and MJ.

Parker is a guy who we can relate to one way or another.

He chose to lead the High Life, to use his power for the good. Sacrificing the things he love for the greater good.
"With great power comes great responsibility."




Last but not least,



BATBOY
oh man, this is sho cool..
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My favourite Superpower is not to have Super Strength, X-Ray Vision, Super Speed, Super Hearing, Web Slinging ability but deep down i would like to have them.

But I yearn for Super-Healing the most, this is the one thing that SuperHeroes are not blessed with and they are the one who always wish they are blessed with it. How many times did you see SuperHeroes regretting not able to save their friends and love ones in time.
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Everyone needs a Hero.
Who's yours?

Would You Be There - Redwan Ali

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..


Thanks TLC for SIC-ing. 

Nice Song.

I can , i will , i would .
can you? will you? would you?

Yesterday was student's councillor investiture which left me some thoughts to ponder about. It mentioned about serving which cut deep right into my heart. About 6 years since i joined the BB, only in the later years did i started serving back to the 26th company. All along thinking that it is something i should do as a form of return for them grooming me to who am i today. In the course of serving the BB, this has not been my true motive, but rather been so blinded by the award and went off course. Nothing is wrong, nothing.. I did my job well enough. The aftermath came after i failed to clinch the award =( Not only the award was gone, my passion for serving the BB was gone as well..

What is Serving actually means to me? It is alot clearer now. To put the larger community above self. I hope a greater cause will really help me to keep that spirit in me. 
Here it comes another problem.. Time. No time for this, no time for that. isit purely an excuse or is there really no time? I believe that this is an excuse make a belief. I'm trying not to fall into this traps.

I have also noticed some changes to myself. I cannot explain or justify my actions but i know i tend to be a little bit overboard recently. 

I will be better the next time. Always =)

On a lighter note, i know that Melisa would like to be credited for this little dance clip that she sent me and also for hinting about her presence. Yup, i really appreciated it.

Also to Wenqi for being the ONLY regular tagger on my blog.. Thanks.

And ya, she said 'Hi' to me when i'm standing there stunned with a hand waving like saying hi..
Not too bad for the closure of Term 2.